Reading the Squirrel Bait entry on virginity has made me think.
Would i go back to being a virgin if there was a magical cure for sexual experience?
My first reaction is Hell no! I enjoy sex far too much to subject myself to frustrating nights of 'everything but', turning people down not because I wasn't interested but because I was 'saving myself' for whatever.
And then i think of the years I spent sleeping with guys, having interesting times and, yes, enjoying myself enough not to notice that there was a feeling growing inside of me, something that made me feel as if I were wrong and out of place. I think i was one of those people who needed to try it all before i figured out what exactly I wanted.
I am 24 years old. At last count, i'd had some form of sexual contact with 18 people, 12 of them male, 5 of them female, one of them sort of either/or. I regret only two of them.
And, besides, sex is fun. Yum!
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*** Message (#23) from Zero Card at 12:14 PM ***
>*laughs* Why do I get the feeling that you're not a fallen angel, you're more
>in the vein of "Angel who will not be pushed?" :)
Yep, I've decided what i'm going to be for Halloween. I'm gonna be the angel who will not be pushed--halo, white robe, combat boots, and torn fishnets. *grins* I have Melanie to thank for the original idea, of course. (always willing to give credit where credit is due, that's me.)
In other Halloween stuff, I carved one of my two pumpkins the night before last, and I'm going to carve the other one tonight. It turns out that Lilith loves pumpkin guts. Bwuh? This cat is weird. She ignored the fact that I had a large sharp thing in my hand and attempted to dive headfirst into the pumpkin. She came out COVERED with bits of pumpkin glop and with a big cat grin on her face.
She's still teething, which means that every chance she gets she gnaws on my fingers. I'm going to buy some wooden pencils without paint on them for her to gnaw on, i think. She's a chatty kitten, and she stands on the table or the bathroom sink and creaks to me about how her teeth are bothering her.
She's also picked up the habit of crawling under the covers with me. It's nice to have this little purring bundle under the covers with me. It's gotten colder at night, and the cats pile on each other and me. I woke up in the middle of the night a few nights ago, and realized all three were sleeping next to me. I spent a while watching them with half-closed eyes, dim in the moonlight that shone around the edges of my curtains—Lilith's Holstien dapple, Juniper's silvery head outlined on Kallisti's dark stomach. The room silent except for the trickle of water in the aquariums.
I fell back asleep curled around their warmth.
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This song is amazing.
