Tomorrow morning, Metro will basically shut down as drivers attend the funeral of the driver who was killed the day after Thanksgiving. Bus service is going to be worse than a snowy sunday from about 8 am on.Maybe I'll go to work early. Maybe i'll walk to work and stop and get espresso along the way.
My GigaPet is still alive; i've discovered the trick of keeping it healthy and all is well.Work's been fun today; i've got a shiny new project to work on and i've been busily making templates and writing documentation.
I miss her. I'm trying to pretend I don't, but it never works.I feel like there's a gulf between us, an empty space that i don't know how to fill. Yet again, this would all be easier if we were closer together, if we saw each other on a daily or weekly basis.
But we don't and can't, so...
I realized yesterday that I hunger for a family of my own.i mean, i love my mom and tolerate my dad, but they're really more like friendly strangers than family. They don't know me because I have been things they consider unacceptable for many a year now, and I hide myself from them. They don't need to know me.
The rest of my family is, by and large, worse than useless. I hide myself from them because I don't want them to know who I am. It's a sad state of affairs, but, hey, you don't have to love the people you're related to by blood.
So i'm feeling like it would be nice, indeed, to have a family, a partner. This is not new; and I know already who i'd ideally like to be that partner. (but, oh, the little cynical voices that say you can't always have what you want...) I mean, hell, i want to have a Christmas tree, an activity that seems sort of silly with just me.
gods help me, I'm again thinking about moving to the midwest. *holds head in hands* I just don't know...
This is the time now. I welcome months in their own season.—winter turning, Asphodel Long
outside: I don't want to look outside.
doing: missing Melanie
link: GigaPet Health suggestions page
dream: muddy dreams about books; I think I've been dreaming novels again.
