stone against skin
September 20th: a critical failure to care
"Let's KICK SOME FANG!"
Dream:
I've been sleeping too deeply to dream again, which is one of my common reactions to stress. I woke up this morning with Lilith licking and biting my nose in an effort to make me realize that her food bowl was empty.
Reality:
11 AM
oh, jeez. hi.Right now I cannot fathom what it would take to make another splash page for my site, which is really sort of frustrating because i'm getting tired of it the way it is. [jeez run on sentences much?] I've worked 66 hours this week, it's sunday, and i wanna go HOME NOW. NOW NOW NOW.
Calm.
Let's try this again.
I'm tired, cranky, and I have to run an afternoon training session tomorrow, just when i thought I was going to be able to slip out unnoticed. ah, well. i'll make it through, and it looks like I get friday as a paid day off. because it's my birthday and all.
I'm going to be 24. I'm not feeling very enthused about my birthday in general, but I think it's just a symptom of the thousand things that are going on in my life right now and my birthday having been relegated to the pile of "things not important".
The journal will be a year old Friday, too. I've been doing this for a year? Wow. It doesn't seem like all that long.
on the other hand, it seems like a significant chunk of my life has passed in this year. i've been busy.
I have nothing of any real import to say, so i'm going to ftp this up and go home.
*****
I have been experiencing waves of missing Melanie today. just out of the blue, it'll hit, leaving me gasping. This huge emotion, this longing...most days it's down to a background noise, but occasionally it ambushes me.
Soon. I promise.
the moment:
stone against skin
CD: nothing, today
Book: Jitterbug Perfume, Tom Robbins
Outside: dark!
Doing: cursing database publishing systems
Link: Sluggy Freelance (yes, again) Worship the comic.
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